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Friday, June 30, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
A special Thursday...
Usually, a Thursday would just be another normal day for me. But this Thursday, which is today, is totally different from all the Thursdays’ I went through before. I did not rush for classes anymore; I did not bring any thick books (my physics textbook) to Swinburne too. Also, Thursday is always a day which I looked forward to see a person, in 2 sessions of classes, both 2 hours. Don’t bother to guess who that person is, because I will not reveal it out :P
It’s because today is the last day of all my lectures and tutorials. I won’t be stepping into Swinburne anymore until the day of my final exams for this semester. Actually, I don’t even understand why I stayed that long in school today. I did not even study in the library and spend the whole afternoon in the student lounge and cafeteria.
*Begins to rub the enchanted lamp*
(In case you do not know what the enchanted lamp is, it’s taken from the Disney ‘Aladdin’ and you will be granted 3 wishes, as the story says.)
I wish that the finals will be over in a flash.
I wish that I will pass all my exams.
I wish that I can have countless wishes. (For future uses)
Ok, back to reality. Study hard Wei Liang, stop daydreaming!!
It’s because today is the last day of all my lectures and tutorials. I won’t be stepping into Swinburne anymore until the day of my final exams for this semester. Actually, I don’t even understand why I stayed that long in school today. I did not even study in the library and spend the whole afternoon in the student lounge and cafeteria.
*Begins to rub the enchanted lamp*
(In case you do not know what the enchanted lamp is, it’s taken from the Disney ‘Aladdin’ and you will be granted 3 wishes, as the story says.)
I wish that the finals will be over in a flash.
I wish that I will pass all my exams.
I wish that I can have countless wishes. (For future uses)
Ok, back to reality. Study hard Wei Liang, stop daydreaming!!
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
To whoever concerns, Grow up
Not to be busybody but... I find it very stupid to whoever did that.
My friend setup a tag-board happily just like mine for chatting purposes and leaving messages. Then, there's this idiot that flamed my friend saying stuffs like he knows this and that, criticizes this and that. I was thinking, who was that person who's doing all this. While my friend went mad and close down the tag-board. He even changed his blog URL. So that means no one will know his blog except maybe his close friends. Well, actually there's another way to his blog, which is through my blog.
Well, to cut things short. Here is what I am going to say it right at your face (to the person who flamed my friend if you happen to read my blog or just pass by) -
From the way you talk, you sound like a kid or maybe just a person with... say 9 years old thinking? You know, the internet is a very vast network, linking everyone and everything together. It may be impossible to track you down, but heck, why do you flame him behind your computer? If you have the guts, go flame my friend directly at his face. I find it very stupid to just flame someone in the tag-board and cowardly name yourself 'SOMEONE' which makes you look more stupid and retarded than ever.
Going hardcore with the internet is like a race in the Special Olympics, eventhough you won the race, you are still retarded. Grow up.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Two in one
Two test continuously for 3 hours tomorrow. They are IT practical and EMA. Everyone is busy studying for those two subjects and yet someone out there is still doing nothing. Sitting in front of the computer, listening to musics and blogging. Who is that person? He is none other than me.
When me and my mind have different thoughts...
Me: "Oh well, I'll study after dinner." (Let's do it)
Mind: "Are you sure you can do so?" (Look of doubt)
Me: "Of course I can. What makes you think i cannot do so?" (Curious)
Mind: "Games (DotA), chatting with friends, surfing net -" (Interrupted)
Me: "Alright alright! Stop listing those out. " (Annoyed and irritated)
Mind: "That's temptation. Aren't you going to try out the new build for-" (Interrupted again)
Me: "I'll switch off the comp before dinner and will not play any games." (Confident)
Mind: "We'll see who is right then." (Laughs)
Me: "..........." (Not confident anymore)
Sigh.
When me and my mind have different thoughts...
Me: "Oh well, I'll study after dinner." (Let's do it)
Mind: "Are you sure you can do so?" (Look of doubt)
Me: "Of course I can. What makes you think i cannot do so?" (Curious)
Mind: "Games (DotA), chatting with friends, surfing net -" (Interrupted)
Me: "Alright alright! Stop listing those out. " (Annoyed and irritated)
Mind: "That's temptation. Aren't you going to try out the new build for-" (Interrupted again)
Me: "I'll switch off the comp before dinner and will not play any games." (Confident)
Mind: "We'll see who is right then." (Laughs)
Me: "..........." (Not confident anymore)
Sigh.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Some changes for my blog
I spent a few hours wondering how to modify my blog by adding more features/items or whatever-you-name-it. With the help of Kimmie-san, I added a counter and a tag-board to my blog. (Thanks Kimmie)
One more week to my semester exams.
Are you prepared?
No.
Are you nervous?
Yes.
Are you confident?
Not really.
Which subject do you like most and why?
OCaP and RfAP. Because I have a love for english I guess...
No more questions to question myself. Oh well, since my semester is ending soon. I might as well describe my lecturers and express my thanks to them for teaching all the students under them.
Miss Melinda Kong, my OcaP and RfAP lecturer. She's a gentle and kind lecturer. Very helpful and friendly, one of the reasons why I always approach her if I have problems in my assignments, especially on OCaP. Never had I seen her angry before, and a big smile always follows her wherever she go. I always look forward to her classes, so are my friends and newfound friends.
Miss Adriana Lai, my Physics A lecturer. A genius in physics and mathematics. Very helpful and friendly too. I did approach her a few times regarding my physics lab report and she's always willing to guide and help. She gave an extra class to the whole class because she wants to make sure she completes the syllabus for the subject she teaches.A very responsible and great teacher I say.
Miss Voon Li Li, my Engineering Maths A (EMA) lecturer. A jolly and kind lecturer. Very helpful and friendly like the lecturers I mentioned earlier. She gave us a lot of tutorials (Slightly too many questions) so that we will understand and improve in the topics she covered. She gave us extra tutorial classes on Fridays and Saturdays, handing down past year question papers for us to work on and guiding us when we are lost in the question. She will be leaving Swinburne for a period of time (if not mistaken) and won't be seeing us on the second semester =/ ah well, Swinburne will lose a lecturer. It may be nothing to the University, but it means a lot for the students taught by her...
Miss Grace Ting, my Finite Maths A (FMA) lecturer. A cheerful and serious lecturer. She does not get angry at all, well in a way. Her concept is: If you want me to explain the tutorial questions to you, you must try the question first. It does benefit all of us in the long run. After all in University, lecturers are not supposed to spoon-feed us like the teachers in primary and secondary school do. I do not wish to say this but, many students imitate what she always say when the class is out of control, which is "Total Silence Please". Of course, she never found that out or maybe she did found out that her students imitate her words but she doesn't care.
Miss Liza Kay, my Information Technology (IT) lecturer. A smiling and joker type lecturer. I was told that she's a very fierce lecturer by a friend of mine by his brother. But then, she doesn't look fierce at all. In fact, she's very helpful and friendly. There's one time when she helped me in my IT practical exam by telling me where to find this and that although it's an exam! Too bad a power failure happened during the exam and had to be postponed to this coming Wednesday. Well, I should be grateful to that blackout because there are a few parts of the question which I am not too sure about.
Not sure whether I will see the lecturers I mentioned above on my next semester, but I will definitely see Miss Grace Ting on the next semester, whether I fail my FMA or not because both FMA and FMB are taught by her. Besides the lecturers, I met many new friends in Swinburne too. I'll name those I can remember, for those I had not mentioned, its not that I do not recognize you as my friend but I have bad memory for names...
They are:
Robert, Shao Wee, Soon Ping, Johnson, Avery, Aaron, Yin Hou, Justin, April, Sheila, Autumn, Fung Yun, Laura, Irene, Clement, Charles, Vincent, Timothy, Ah Seng, Kenneth, Hillary, Sze Huang and many more...
I also met two more friends from Blueserver (Bs3). They are Chen and Jin Thad. Known as Alycez and Valppy respectively. I knew Chen first because he told me that it is easy to identify him by his mole when I chat with him in Bs3. Then I met Jin Thad in Bs3 forums when he started a thread on Swinburne University. We met up at an arranged time in front of Swinburne's cafeteria. He looked very familiar to me when I met him but I dismissed that thought. That night, Jeffrey told me Jin Thad is from Stampin Primary School too. Then I realized that he's my ex-classmate. The funny and nice part is, Chen and Jin Thad are cousins, and I know both of them through Bs3.
The world is a very small place. Agree?
One more week to my semester exams.
Are you prepared?
No.
Are you nervous?
Yes.
Are you confident?
Not really.
Which subject do you like most and why?
OCaP and RfAP. Because I have a love for english I guess...
No more questions to question myself. Oh well, since my semester is ending soon. I might as well describe my lecturers and express my thanks to them for teaching all the students under them.
Miss Melinda Kong, my OcaP and RfAP lecturer. She's a gentle and kind lecturer. Very helpful and friendly, one of the reasons why I always approach her if I have problems in my assignments, especially on OCaP. Never had I seen her angry before, and a big smile always follows her wherever she go. I always look forward to her classes, so are my friends and newfound friends.
Miss Adriana Lai, my Physics A lecturer. A genius in physics and mathematics. Very helpful and friendly too. I did approach her a few times regarding my physics lab report and she's always willing to guide and help. She gave an extra class to the whole class because she wants to make sure she completes the syllabus for the subject she teaches.A very responsible and great teacher I say.
Miss Voon Li Li, my Engineering Maths A (EMA) lecturer. A jolly and kind lecturer. Very helpful and friendly like the lecturers I mentioned earlier. She gave us a lot of tutorials (Slightly too many questions) so that we will understand and improve in the topics she covered. She gave us extra tutorial classes on Fridays and Saturdays, handing down past year question papers for us to work on and guiding us when we are lost in the question. She will be leaving Swinburne for a period of time (if not mistaken) and won't be seeing us on the second semester =/ ah well, Swinburne will lose a lecturer. It may be nothing to the University, but it means a lot for the students taught by her...
Miss Grace Ting, my Finite Maths A (FMA) lecturer. A cheerful and serious lecturer. She does not get angry at all, well in a way. Her concept is: If you want me to explain the tutorial questions to you, you must try the question first. It does benefit all of us in the long run. After all in University, lecturers are not supposed to spoon-feed us like the teachers in primary and secondary school do. I do not wish to say this but, many students imitate what she always say when the class is out of control, which is "Total Silence Please". Of course, she never found that out or maybe she did found out that her students imitate her words but she doesn't care.
Miss Liza Kay, my Information Technology (IT) lecturer. A smiling and joker type lecturer. I was told that she's a very fierce lecturer by a friend of mine by his brother. But then, she doesn't look fierce at all. In fact, she's very helpful and friendly. There's one time when she helped me in my IT practical exam by telling me where to find this and that although it's an exam! Too bad a power failure happened during the exam and had to be postponed to this coming Wednesday. Well, I should be grateful to that blackout because there are a few parts of the question which I am not too sure about.
Not sure whether I will see the lecturers I mentioned above on my next semester, but I will definitely see Miss Grace Ting on the next semester, whether I fail my FMA or not because both FMA and FMB are taught by her. Besides the lecturers, I met many new friends in Swinburne too. I'll name those I can remember, for those I had not mentioned, its not that I do not recognize you as my friend but I have bad memory for names...
They are:
Robert, Shao Wee, Soon Ping, Johnson, Avery, Aaron, Yin Hou, Justin, April, Sheila, Autumn, Fung Yun, Laura, Irene, Clement, Charles, Vincent, Timothy, Ah Seng, Kenneth, Hillary, Sze Huang and many more...
I also met two more friends from Blueserver (Bs3). They are Chen and Jin Thad. Known as Alycez and Valppy respectively. I knew Chen first because he told me that it is easy to identify him by his mole when I chat with him in Bs3. Then I met Jin Thad in Bs3 forums when he started a thread on Swinburne University. We met up at an arranged time in front of Swinburne's cafeteria. He looked very familiar to me when I met him but I dismissed that thought. That night, Jeffrey told me Jin Thad is from Stampin Primary School too. Then I realized that he's my ex-classmate. The funny and nice part is, Chen and Jin Thad are cousins, and I know both of them through Bs3.
The world is a very small place. Agree?
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Factors for a relationship
Since I'm quite free and filled with thoughts in my mind... I'll start writing something then...
To start a relationship... TRUST is needed.
In fact, trust is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Why? Because, lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation. Take this scene as an example:
A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is." Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".
Next, NO OVERPOWERING.
Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case.
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing our partner's character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations...
Having the RIGHT SPEECH which is one of the most important factor in a relationship.
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. You see, when a couple is too close with each other, they always forget about mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if saying those words would hurt the other party. Take this case as an example:
A lady and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, “Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered,” You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."
Frequently exchanging these remarks sow the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed nor restored.
Also, NO POINTING FINGERS.
A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?" The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."
In the society today, we all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. This is very true, isn't it? If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too. Agree?
Always keep in mind that everyone has their own PERSONAL PERCEPTION.
Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. For example:
A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them rides on the donkey?” Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river.
You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear...
And finally, BE PATIENT.
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, and hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, “Daddy, I’m sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "But when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide. Sad isn't it? A child lost his dad, and his wife lost her soul mate and the family lost the head or leader.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired... Broken bones & hurt feelings often cannot be repaired and restored. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Those factors mentioned above are the ones I do not have when I was in a relationship. I had not treasure the person who loved me before. Each of those factors brought back at least a happening in those 2 years. Like I mentioned before, a broken egg cannot be reversed nor restored. So is a broken relationship, cannot be reversed nor restored. Regrets usually come after each happening, and the thought of those 2 years made me wrote all these. QE if you are reading this, I apologize again for what has happened. I was still angry at you before, but now I'm not, for you gave me priceless experience during those 2 years on how to be a better person which I will carry with me till the end of my journey. You have my blessings which you always wanted in your relationship before. As for me, I prefer to stay single and enjoy a single life. Somehow the thought of being in a relationship stresses me out. I know many readers out there will disagree with me. Maybe I'm one in a hundred who disagrees in having a relationship at this stage of life. Well, nobody cares. You have your own stand, I have mine too.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Oral Communication and Presentation
In my oral communication and presentation (lets call it OcaP class), we were taught to speak fluently, have correct pauses when we talk, pronounce the words correctly especially words that ends with 's' and many more. While deep in thoughts, i came across this animated picture which is slightly modified from a cartoon, Captain Planet (or whatever it is) which I used to watch during my childhood years. To summon this Captain Planet to rescue the planet or something which i don't care to remember, rings of elements are needed.
But now, for us teenagers, we don't need Captain Planet anymore.
Ladies and gentlemen, allow me to introduce to you... Captain Grammar!
To summon him, you need 'noun' 'verb' 'adjective' 'spelling' and 'punctuation'. Cool huh? -_-''
Oh well, i need a better command on my english language for my coming OcaP assessment.
But now, for us teenagers, we don't need Captain Planet anymore.
Ladies and gentlemen, allow me to introduce to you... Captain Grammar!
To summon him, you need 'noun' 'verb' 'adjective' 'spelling' and 'punctuation'. Cool huh? -_-''
Oh well, i need a better command on my english language for my coming OcaP assessment.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
What makes life 100%?
If we assign numbers to the alpahabet...
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
then,
HARDWORK 8 1 18 4 23 15 18 11 = 98%
KNOWLEDGE 11 14 15 23 12 5 4 7 5 = 96%
and ATTITUDE 1 20 20 9 20 21 4 5 = 100%
yes yes, but BULLSHITING 2 21 12 12 19 8 9 20 9 14 7 = 133%
so what can you conclude?
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
then,
HARDWORK 8 1 18 4 23 15 18 11 = 98%
KNOWLEDGE 11 14 15 23 12 5 4 7 5 = 96%
and ATTITUDE 1 20 20 9 20 21 4 5 = 100%
yes yes, but BULLSHITING 2 21 12 12 19 8 9 20 9 14 7 = 133%
so what can you conclude?
Life before computers...
An application was for employment,
A program was a TV show,
A cursor used profanity,
A keyboard was a piano.
Memory was something that you lost with age,
A CD was a bank account,
And if you had a 3 and 1/2 inch floppy,
You hoped nobody found out.
Compress was something you did to garbage,
Not something you did to a file,
And if you unzipped anything in public,
You'd be in jail for awhile.
Log on was adding wood to a fire,
Hard drive was a long trip on the road,
A mouse pad was where mice lived,
And a backup happened to your commode.
Cut - you did with a pocketknife,
Paste - you did with glue,
A web was a spiders home,
and a virus was the flu.
I guess i'll stick to my pad and paper,
And the memory in my head,
I hear nobody's been killed in a computer crash,
But when it happens they wish they were dead.
Get the hidden meaning of the green and red colored text?
A program was a TV show,
A cursor used profanity,
A keyboard was a piano.
Memory was something that you lost with age,
A CD was a bank account,
And if you had a 3 and 1/2 inch floppy,
You hoped nobody found out.
Compress was something you did to garbage,
Not something you did to a file,
And if you unzipped anything in public,
You'd be in jail for awhile.
Log on was adding wood to a fire,
Hard drive was a long trip on the road,
A mouse pad was where mice lived,
And a backup happened to your commode.
Cut - you did with a pocketknife,
Paste - you did with glue,
A web was a spiders home,
and a virus was the flu.
I guess i'll stick to my pad and paper,
And the memory in my head,
I hear nobody's been killed in a computer crash,
But when it happens they wish they were dead.
Get the hidden meaning of the green and red colored text?
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Assessments assessments...
F.I.N.I.T.E Mathematics
Hearing that subject makes you chill,
The thought of that subject makes you shiver,
Gazing at the eyes of the lecturer makes you freeze,
Many dozed off during her lecture sessions,
But none dare to sleep during her tutorial sessions,
Hearing the same words from her over and over again:
" TOTAL SILENCE PLEASE "
Immitate not her words,
Should she found out that you do so,
You are dead from that day onwards,
"Respect other people if you want others to respect you" is what she always say,
Which I find it very true, but heck, when we mentioned about Finite Mathematics,
The phrase " Total Silence Please. " is always mentioned.
Silence is GOLDEN. Agree?
Hearing that subject makes you chill,
The thought of that subject makes you shiver,
Gazing at the eyes of the lecturer makes you freeze,
Many dozed off during her lecture sessions,
But none dare to sleep during her tutorial sessions,
Hearing the same words from her over and over again:
" TOTAL SILENCE PLEASE "
Immitate not her words,
Should she found out that you do so,
You are dead from that day onwards,
"Respect other people if you want others to respect you" is what she always say,
Which I find it very true, but heck, when we mentioned about Finite Mathematics,
The phrase " Total Silence Please. " is always mentioned.
Silence is GOLDEN. Agree?
Feelings
When feelings dominate you, you become emotional.
When feelings deserted you, you become cold-hearted.
Someone: "You have the heart of steel."
Me: "Heart of steel, cold as ever, loyal forever."
Oh well, that conversation happened many months ago. I went through those times when feelings dominate me and deserted me. I had cried before when there's a sad happening. I cried when my uncle went to be with the Lord few years ago, I hardly talked to him. Why? Because he used to work in Singapore till recently he came back to Malaysia. He is a very kind-hearted soul. Always smiling whenever I see him. He never shouts or talk loudly. He takes things easily. Like my mum said: "When our loved ones are around, we don't treasure them and hardly spend time with them. We ignore them sometimes too. BUT, when they left us, only then will the emptyness inside us crush our hearts completely without mercy." Yeah, boys do cry too. But they WILL NOT show it in front of anyone, especially in front of girls.
Recently a new feeling is growing inside me. I'm not sure what is that for, but i'm sure it has something to do with an old friend of mine. Be it any feelings. I have to ignore it, if not, history will repeat itself again... Haiz... To look at the bright side, she's an angel and a good friend of mine.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Fathers' Day
When I was:
Four years old: My daddy can do anything.
Five years old: My daddy knows a whole lot.
Six years old: My dad is smarter than your dad.
Eight years old: My dad doesn't know exactly everything.
Ten years old: In the olden days, when my dad grew up, things were sure different.
Twelve years old: Oh, well, naturally, Dad doesn't know anything about that. He is too old to remember his childhood.
Fourteen years old: Don't pay any attention to my dad. He is so old-fashioned.
Twenty-one years old: Him? My Lord, he's hopelessly out of date.
Twenty-five years old: Dad knows about it, but then he should, because he has been around so long.
Thirty years old: Maybe we should ask Dad what he thinks. After all, he's had a lot of experience.
Thirty-five years old: I'm not doing a single thing until I talk to Dad.
Forty years old: I wonder how Dad would have handled it. He was so wise.
Fifty years old: I'd give anything if Dad were here now so I could talk this over with him. It was a terrible mistake that i hadn't appreciate how smart he was. I could have learned a lot from him.
Writer Unknown
I have two fathers, Yes, TWO fathers. It is very weird isn't it?
How can I possibly have two fathers? Well, the answer is simple.
My first father is my Lord and Shephered, the maker of our earth.
My second father is the one who made it possible for me to see this world.
I recalled the title 'A hero whom I admire' from a classmate of mine in Oral Communications class during Public Speaking. He mentioned that the hero he admire is his dad.
My dad, a hero of mine, someone whom I respect more than anyone else. He had done so much for me yet what can I do to repay him?
When I am four, I stepped into the nursery for the 1st time, I cried and cried because I had to leave my parents and let other people took care of me. I vomitted non-stop too. In the end, my parents took a day off to accompany me.
When I am seven, My dad accompany me to my primary school, including my mum. Until I am settled down, only then they said goodbye to me and told me that they will be waiting for me before my school ends. :)
When I am eight, There was one time when I met with bullies (primary 5 to 6 i think) while waiting for my dad to fetch me. They surrounded me for no reason and asked me to say sorry (WTH, why should I say sorry when I had done nothing wrong? ) My dad came and asked me what happened. I told him everything and he asked me if I want him to scold them. I just said no and let's leave this place. My dad glared at them and that's the last time I see those bullies.
When I am thirteen, entering my secondary school. He gave me money to buy all the necessary items needed for secondary school and told me to study hard, he will take care of all my financial needs. Time after time, He bought new school uniforms and shoes for me because the old ones are either torned or too small for me as I grow up.
When I am seventeen ( eighteen soon), He paid for my college fees and all my financial needs again. Though I told him that I want to use my own money to pay, he refused and paid everything for me again. Told me to save my own money for lunch and to tell him if I do not have enough money with me.
During the seventeen years in my life, he worked hard and sacrificed a lot for my family. Just to get me and my brother to be educated and have a better life in the future. There are countless things that he had done for me alone, without including what he had done for my brother and my mum. After I finished reading that poem written by someone unknown, I felt so heavy in my heart. The author is right, in our young age, we believed that our dad is our hero everytime. During our teenage years to adult years, we tend to go our own way and stop listening to our dad's advice. Thinking that we are better than they are. But the fact is, we are wrong, very wrong. My dad used to say "The salt i ate is more than the rice you ate." when i disagree with him on a certain issue like the time when i had a GF, he told me not to waste my time on girls as it would be puppy love. I refused to listen. 2 years later, we broke up. In the end of the day, I was wrong, he was right. How I wished I had listened to his advice earlier. A father wants to see his children successful in their future, in career and family.
Although I do quarrel and argue with my dad sometimes, I know he loves me and knows the best for me. There are times that I hurt him deeply and there is nothing I can do to heal the wounds in his heart. Regret, is the word I always use once something is over. He would say "Look towards the future, never turn back to the past."
This is for you dad
He's the grandest of men to have lived on this earth,
He's not royal by stature or birth.
He's a man of great dignity, honor and strength.
His merits are noble, and of admirable length.
He's far greater than all other men that I know,
He's my Dad, he's my mentor, my friend and hero.
I'll stop writing now. Although you do not know about my blog and read my blog dad, deep in my heart I want to apologize for all the mistakes I had done in your eyes, from the day I see this world till today. Dad, I love you very much. Happy Father's Day!
Four years old: My daddy can do anything.
Five years old: My daddy knows a whole lot.
Six years old: My dad is smarter than your dad.
Eight years old: My dad doesn't know exactly everything.
Ten years old: In the olden days, when my dad grew up, things were sure different.
Twelve years old: Oh, well, naturally, Dad doesn't know anything about that. He is too old to remember his childhood.
Fourteen years old: Don't pay any attention to my dad. He is so old-fashioned.
Twenty-one years old: Him? My Lord, he's hopelessly out of date.
Twenty-five years old: Dad knows about it, but then he should, because he has been around so long.
Thirty years old: Maybe we should ask Dad what he thinks. After all, he's had a lot of experience.
Thirty-five years old: I'm not doing a single thing until I talk to Dad.
Forty years old: I wonder how Dad would have handled it. He was so wise.
Fifty years old: I'd give anything if Dad were here now so I could talk this over with him. It was a terrible mistake that i hadn't appreciate how smart he was. I could have learned a lot from him.
Writer Unknown
I have two fathers, Yes, TWO fathers. It is very weird isn't it?
How can I possibly have two fathers? Well, the answer is simple.
My first father is my Lord and Shephered, the maker of our earth.
My second father is the one who made it possible for me to see this world.
I recalled the title 'A hero whom I admire' from a classmate of mine in Oral Communications class during Public Speaking. He mentioned that the hero he admire is his dad.
My dad, a hero of mine, someone whom I respect more than anyone else. He had done so much for me yet what can I do to repay him?
When I am four, I stepped into the nursery for the 1st time, I cried and cried because I had to leave my parents and let other people took care of me. I vomitted non-stop too. In the end, my parents took a day off to accompany me.
When I am seven, My dad accompany me to my primary school, including my mum. Until I am settled down, only then they said goodbye to me and told me that they will be waiting for me before my school ends. :)
When I am eight, There was one time when I met with bullies (primary 5 to 6 i think) while waiting for my dad to fetch me. They surrounded me for no reason and asked me to say sorry (WTH, why should I say sorry when I had done nothing wrong? ) My dad came and asked me what happened. I told him everything and he asked me if I want him to scold them. I just said no and let's leave this place. My dad glared at them and that's the last time I see those bullies.
When I am thirteen, entering my secondary school. He gave me money to buy all the necessary items needed for secondary school and told me to study hard, he will take care of all my financial needs. Time after time, He bought new school uniforms and shoes for me because the old ones are either torned or too small for me as I grow up.
When I am seventeen ( eighteen soon), He paid for my college fees and all my financial needs again. Though I told him that I want to use my own money to pay, he refused and paid everything for me again. Told me to save my own money for lunch and to tell him if I do not have enough money with me.
During the seventeen years in my life, he worked hard and sacrificed a lot for my family. Just to get me and my brother to be educated and have a better life in the future. There are countless things that he had done for me alone, without including what he had done for my brother and my mum. After I finished reading that poem written by someone unknown, I felt so heavy in my heart. The author is right, in our young age, we believed that our dad is our hero everytime. During our teenage years to adult years, we tend to go our own way and stop listening to our dad's advice. Thinking that we are better than they are. But the fact is, we are wrong, very wrong. My dad used to say "The salt i ate is more than the rice you ate." when i disagree with him on a certain issue like the time when i had a GF, he told me not to waste my time on girls as it would be puppy love. I refused to listen. 2 years later, we broke up. In the end of the day, I was wrong, he was right. How I wished I had listened to his advice earlier. A father wants to see his children successful in their future, in career and family.
Although I do quarrel and argue with my dad sometimes, I know he loves me and knows the best for me. There are times that I hurt him deeply and there is nothing I can do to heal the wounds in his heart. Regret, is the word I always use once something is over. He would say "Look towards the future, never turn back to the past."
This is for you dad
He's the grandest of men to have lived on this earth,
He's not royal by stature or birth.
He's a man of great dignity, honor and strength.
His merits are noble, and of admirable length.
He's far greater than all other men that I know,
He's my Dad, he's my mentor, my friend and hero.
I'll stop writing now. Although you do not know about my blog and read my blog dad, deep in my heart I want to apologize for all the mistakes I had done in your eyes, from the day I see this world till today. Dad, I love you very much. Happy Father's Day!
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Memories of the past..
Alone at home, sitting in front of the computer, thoughts drifting far far away...
Recalling the days of my secondary school life... Wondering how is everyone doing...
I miss all the fun and laughters in my secondary school years, all wild and natural. Until the PK HEM came to 'visit' us as well.
5 BeTa
Alan, Daniel, Donny and Timothy,
The usual gang I am with.
When Alan and Donny is around, laughter is guaranteed. Gotta learn to master the art of sleep-studying from Donny, the teachers never realized that he is sleeping all the time. Also, He's a master of Wushu.
When you have something in heart which you would like to share with someone but do not want that person to spread that secret, Daniel is there to listen to you and talk with you. He's also a pro in drawing anything, just a glance and comes insight for him to draw. A future architect.
Timothy, having the same tuition class in Physics with me, the class goes wild when Izzudin and Timothy are around.
Mei Sien and Irene,
Known as the god-daughters of Siong Kwong.
Mei Sien and Irene are from Japan and China respectively. Yeah, thats a joke, because they are from Malaysia. Just that they look like Japanese and China girls. They helped me countless times in my school work and Projects. Gotta thank the two of you for helping a lot, especially in Science subjects.
Catharine and Wei Ling,
Catharine (is said she's from Korea, because she looks like a korean) is also one of the god-daughter of Siong Kwong, same class with me in tuition for Physics too. She was the one who talked me to join Mr. Mok's physics tuition class since Form 4 and I joined in Form 5 mid-year *_*
Wei Ling, Wei Liang. A difference of an 'A' only. Some teachers always got messed up with my name and her name. She will be going to Singapore to further her studies in July. Greetings from Swinburne. All of us wish you good luck in your studies, do remember to come back to visit us sometimes when you are free :D
Both of them are my god-sisters. Gotta thank both of you for helping me a lot in my school work too! ^^
Alex aka Ah Jian Ai Sian, Pei Pei, See Liong, Sharon, Sing Hui, Stephanie,
Usually the talkative bunch.
See Liong and Pei Pei, the class monitors. Very helpful and respected by many. With just these two words, "Jangan Bising" the whole class became quiet.
Ah Jian, a handsome guy. Many gals are after him (thats what I heard) very kind and helpful, never once breaking the school rules (maybe) .
Ai Sian, a girl that always jokes around. But when it comes to studies, she's serious. (Forgive me for last time's incident ya, was quite immature that time during Form 1 to Form 2)
Sharon and Sing Hui, although I do not know the two of you for a long time, heck, its fun to have the two of you around. Your voices could be heard miles away~ (don't kill me >.< ) Stephanie, now studying in Swinburne. How's Swinburne compared to our secondary school (Form 6) ? Do you miss your friends?
Recalling the days of my secondary school life... Wondering how is everyone doing...
I miss all the fun and laughters in my secondary school years, all wild and natural. Until the PK HEM came to 'visit' us as well.
5 BeTa
Alan, Daniel, Donny and Timothy,
The usual gang I am with.
When Alan and Donny is around, laughter is guaranteed. Gotta learn to master the art of sleep-studying from Donny, the teachers never realized that he is sleeping all the time. Also, He's a master of Wushu.
When you have something in heart which you would like to share with someone but do not want that person to spread that secret, Daniel is there to listen to you and talk with you. He's also a pro in drawing anything, just a glance and comes insight for him to draw. A future architect.
Timothy, having the same tuition class in Physics with me, the class goes wild when Izzudin and Timothy are around.
Mei Sien and Irene,
Known as the god-daughters of Siong Kwong.
Mei Sien and Irene are from Japan and China respectively. Yeah, thats a joke, because they are from Malaysia. Just that they look like Japanese and China girls. They helped me countless times in my school work and Projects. Gotta thank the two of you for helping a lot, especially in Science subjects.
Catharine and Wei Ling,
Catharine (is said she's from Korea, because she looks like a korean) is also one of the god-daughter of Siong Kwong, same class with me in tuition for Physics too. She was the one who talked me to join Mr. Mok's physics tuition class since Form 4 and I joined in Form 5 mid-year *_*
Wei Ling, Wei Liang. A difference of an 'A' only. Some teachers always got messed up with my name and her name. She will be going to Singapore to further her studies in July. Greetings from Swinburne. All of us wish you good luck in your studies, do remember to come back to visit us sometimes when you are free :D
Both of them are my god-sisters. Gotta thank both of you for helping me a lot in my school work too! ^^
Alex aka Ah Jian Ai Sian, Pei Pei, See Liong, Sharon, Sing Hui, Stephanie,
Usually the talkative bunch.
See Liong and Pei Pei, the class monitors. Very helpful and respected by many. With just these two words, "Jangan Bising" the whole class became quiet.
Ah Jian, a handsome guy. Many gals are after him (thats what I heard) very kind and helpful, never once breaking the school rules (maybe) .
Ai Sian, a girl that always jokes around. But when it comes to studies, she's serious. (Forgive me for last time's incident ya, was quite immature that time during Form 1 to Form 2)
Sharon and Sing Hui, although I do not know the two of you for a long time, heck, its fun to have the two of you around. Your voices could be heard miles away~ (don't kill me >.< ) Stephanie, now studying in Swinburne. How's Swinburne compared to our secondary school (Form 6) ? Do you miss your friends?
Valenri Ten and Shirley Yeo,
The two of them seated in front of me. Always argue with them most of the time over small simple matters.. Realized that they are just jokingly talking with me only after some time.. Argh! Thanks to their coaching I am able to do well in some of my subjects, especially writing reports for science subjects. Shirley you owe me Pizza~! (stomach rumbles)
The two of them seated in front of me. Always argue with them most of the time over small simple matters.. Realized that they are just jokingly talking with me only after some time.. Argh! Thanks to their coaching I am able to do well in some of my subjects, especially writing reports for science subjects. Shirley you owe me Pizza~! (stomach rumbles)
Wan Yan and Lee Lee,
The two shy girls of 5 Beta. Always giggling but when asked why, they said nothing funny. Talking to them can be just a while or hours, depending on the topic. They look very kind and innocent, but when provoked, you can see a drastic change. I shall not elaborate further (don't kill me please >.<)
Jasmine, Luan Jia, Pei Sze and Siaw Wei, Siew Yong and Ee Sze,
Jasmine, being the quiet girl can be very very helpful when it comes to mathematics.
Luan Jia aka Jay Chou, why Jay Chou? Because her name is Chou Luan Jia, and the name printed on her name tag is LJ Chow, so we got used to call her Jay Chou. Very smart girl, got many A1s in her SPM (envy)
Pei Sze, my god-sister too. Had been in the same class with me since Form 1. Also very helpful when it comes to school work and homework.
Siaw Wei, another smart girl in additional mathematics, she got the highest score in SPM mock test. Very chatty and helpful too.
Siew Yong, a very quiet and smart girl. A girl i would recommend if you are to ask who could give a tution for all the subjects.
Ee Sze, known her since Primary school but rarely talk to her for some reason that I do not wish to recall. She's one of the best students in our class.
Jorge Alvarez, Galvin, Ian and Eben.
Jorge, known as the outstanding one in our class. Had been used as an example for our Physics teacher when he had to demonstrate inertia, momentum and many more.
Galvin, Ian and Eben, Good with guitar notes and football. You can hear them singing in classroom sometimes when they have their guitar with them.
I still have a long list to go, will continue on next time when I am free again.
P.S: Forgive me if the spelling for your name is incorrect, I have bad memory sometimes =/
Jasmine, being the quiet girl can be very very helpful when it comes to mathematics.
Luan Jia aka Jay Chou, why Jay Chou? Because her name is Chou Luan Jia, and the name printed on her name tag is LJ Chow, so we got used to call her Jay Chou. Very smart girl, got many A1s in her SPM (envy)
Pei Sze, my god-sister too. Had been in the same class with me since Form 1. Also very helpful when it comes to school work and homework.
Siaw Wei, another smart girl in additional mathematics, she got the highest score in SPM mock test. Very chatty and helpful too.
Siew Yong, a very quiet and smart girl. A girl i would recommend if you are to ask who could give a tution for all the subjects.
Ee Sze, known her since Primary school but rarely talk to her for some reason that I do not wish to recall. She's one of the best students in our class.
Jorge Alvarez, Galvin, Ian and Eben.
Jorge, known as the outstanding one in our class. Had been used as an example for our Physics teacher when he had to demonstrate inertia, momentum and many more.
Galvin, Ian and Eben, Good with guitar notes and football. You can hear them singing in classroom sometimes when they have their guitar with them.
I still have a long list to go, will continue on next time when I am free again.
P.S: Forgive me if the spelling for your name is incorrect, I have bad memory sometimes =/
Thursday, June 15, 2006
A misunderstanding that had been haunting me for the past two years cleared...
Its been awhile since I last blogged. Due to the pressure I faced in my Uni life, homework, assignments, tests, anything u name it. And my physics test is coming today as I blog right now.
There was this incident which happened in Form 3 between me and a girl. Lets call her J. It all began in my Form 1 year, she was in the same class with me. We will usually play around, chit-chat, joke around in a group consisting of usually 2-3 boys and 4 girls (us included)
Form 2, Year 2002
I get to know her better, we started sending birthday cards and birthday presents when it is our birthday. That time, I still had no feelings for her, only treating her as a good friend of mine.
There is this khidmat masyarakat (cleaning of school compound) which every students must present themselves to clean the school compound, attendance compulsory. Usually, 2-3 classes will be assigned to go at the same day to clean the school. It was that fateful day when my friends from other classes are present to clean the school compound too. After I finished my part cleaning the school compound and on my way back to the store to return the equipment with my friend SK, J passed by and I started talking to her like usual. Then SK and I engaged a conversation:
SK: “Hey, who is she? Is she your girlfriend?”
Me: “Huh? No, she’s not.”
SK: “Oh ok, let’s return the equipment now.”
It was then I started to have feelings for J. A part of me blamed my friend silently in my heart for making me have feelings for J, while the other part of me is mixed with feelings of confusion and indescribable joy. I’ll skip my Form 2 part as there’s nothing related to what I am writing now.
Form 3, Year 2003
She went to the best class and I went to the second best class. We still greet each other when we met. On Teachers’ Day, everything went well. We had cakes, drinks, food, fruits, and many more. After every teacher left (which is around 1pm) and some students stayed back to clean up the tables and clearing the rubbish. Took awhile to clean up everything then we all gathered together at teacher’s table and started to chit-chat. We talked about school life, our family, friends, until personal life. It was when girlfriends and boyfriends came into our conversation. And I was questioned by my friends:
Friends: “WL, do you have someone you like?”
Me: “Uh… yes, but she’s not in our class.”
Friends: “Which class?”
Me: “Merah class.” (the best class)
Then they started to guess the girl that I like but each time I answered “Nope” till they persuaded me to give them a clue.
WL: “She’s in the same class with me last year.”
Friends: “Ah J?” (she’s the only girl that went to the best class)
WL: “Yes.”
It was the greatest mistake I made in my life. I should not have revealed to them that I have feelings for J. Ever since that day, my friends started to tease her whenever she passed by. Being a shy type gal, she avoided them and from that day onwards, we never talked to each other anymore. Even when we met each other, we would pretend to look at somewhere else (as if there’s anything to look at!) or just pretend to talk to friends or listen intensively to our friend talking.
Form 4 to Form 5, Year 2004-2005
I bear the pain and suffering for my own mistake for 2 years. Our paths rarely crossed. I told myself to talk to her, who knows, after SPM, I might not be able to meet her anymore. And without realizing, SPM started. Again, I met her (we reached school at the same time in one of those exam days) I wanted to call her and talked to her, but I hesitated because of the lack of courage in me and in the end I let that chance escaped.
March, 2006
In the blink of an eye, our self-proclaimed holidays are over (from December to March, while some students already started studying in January) and we had to go to school again to collect our result slip. Again, I met her alone approaching her teacher to collect her slip. After she thanked and left her teacher, I wanted to approach her and talked to her as I was just next to her but I lacked the courage again to do so. Damn, what a coward I am…! It was like she was waiting for me to say something to her so she stood there looking around. Again I let that chance escaped as she walked away. I could only shake my head sadly and blame myself for being such a coward.
15th June 2006
A good friend of mine, CH told me and Kelvin (Kelvin was in the same class with her during Form 4 to Form 5) during recess time that J send her regards to us. It was then I remembered her and all the flashbacks of my secondary school life came to me in a flash. I kept quiet all the while because I was mixed with sad and happy emotions.
Sad: Because I had not talked to her while I had the chance.
Happy: Because I heard of her again.
After my final class for yesterday, we went out and waited for our parents to pick us up and return to our respective homes. CH told me that J have a handphone, I was glad and asked her for J’s number. I got her number and I store it in my contact list, planning to sms or call her later to talk to her.
15th June 2006. – 8.19pm
While going through my physics textbook and tutorial, I picked up my phone and began smsing her..
WL: “Hello J, long time no see, how are you?”
J: “Who r u?
WL: “WL, are you J? Did I get the wrong num?”
J: “Oh, u ha! Em, long no c ho. I heard CH say u r in Swinburne. I m fine. U? Ok or not 8 there?”
WL: “Not too gd, not too bad lor. A lot of homework n assignments, wad abt u? How’s Form 6?
J: “Em, juz starting. But hav 2 work hard la. D books r very thick, I duno can tackle them or not.
WL: “Sure can la, you so smart leh. Eh r u busy now? If u r then I chat with u next time lor.. Hope that u will forgive me for wad happened in Form 3 that time…
J: “Ha, I already 4got liao, we stil friend ma… I sms u next time lo. Good luck 2 u.
WL: “Thanks J :) All the best to you too! Cya around~
And so our conversation ended. This line is the only line that made my evening joyous:
- J: "Ha, I already 4got liao, we stil friend ma…"
I succeeded in talking to her, to most of you it might be nothing but it is something joyful to me.
Today, 16th June 2006 – 1:37am
……… Yawn… I’ll call it a day. I have a test coming in 18 hours time… sigh… Took 2 hours time to recall, blog and edit till everything is in the correct order..
There was this incident which happened in Form 3 between me and a girl. Lets call her J. It all began in my Form 1 year, she was in the same class with me. We will usually play around, chit-chat, joke around in a group consisting of usually 2-3 boys and 4 girls (us included)
Form 2, Year 2002
I get to know her better, we started sending birthday cards and birthday presents when it is our birthday. That time, I still had no feelings for her, only treating her as a good friend of mine.
There is this khidmat masyarakat (cleaning of school compound) which every students must present themselves to clean the school compound, attendance compulsory. Usually, 2-3 classes will be assigned to go at the same day to clean the school. It was that fateful day when my friends from other classes are present to clean the school compound too. After I finished my part cleaning the school compound and on my way back to the store to return the equipment with my friend SK, J passed by and I started talking to her like usual. Then SK and I engaged a conversation:
SK: “Hey, who is she? Is she your girlfriend?”
Me: “Huh? No, she’s not.”
SK: “Oh ok, let’s return the equipment now.”
It was then I started to have feelings for J. A part of me blamed my friend silently in my heart for making me have feelings for J, while the other part of me is mixed with feelings of confusion and indescribable joy. I’ll skip my Form 2 part as there’s nothing related to what I am writing now.
Form 3, Year 2003
She went to the best class and I went to the second best class. We still greet each other when we met. On Teachers’ Day, everything went well. We had cakes, drinks, food, fruits, and many more. After every teacher left (which is around 1pm) and some students stayed back to clean up the tables and clearing the rubbish. Took awhile to clean up everything then we all gathered together at teacher’s table and started to chit-chat. We talked about school life, our family, friends, until personal life. It was when girlfriends and boyfriends came into our conversation. And I was questioned by my friends:
Friends: “WL, do you have someone you like?”
Me: “Uh… yes, but she’s not in our class.”
Friends: “Which class?”
Me: “Merah class.” (the best class)
Then they started to guess the girl that I like but each time I answered “Nope” till they persuaded me to give them a clue.
WL: “She’s in the same class with me last year.”
Friends: “Ah J?” (she’s the only girl that went to the best class)
WL: “Yes.”
It was the greatest mistake I made in my life. I should not have revealed to them that I have feelings for J. Ever since that day, my friends started to tease her whenever she passed by. Being a shy type gal, she avoided them and from that day onwards, we never talked to each other anymore. Even when we met each other, we would pretend to look at somewhere else (as if there’s anything to look at!) or just pretend to talk to friends or listen intensively to our friend talking.
Form 4 to Form 5, Year 2004-2005
I bear the pain and suffering for my own mistake for 2 years. Our paths rarely crossed. I told myself to talk to her, who knows, after SPM, I might not be able to meet her anymore. And without realizing, SPM started. Again, I met her (we reached school at the same time in one of those exam days) I wanted to call her and talked to her, but I hesitated because of the lack of courage in me and in the end I let that chance escaped.
March, 2006
In the blink of an eye, our self-proclaimed holidays are over (from December to March, while some students already started studying in January) and we had to go to school again to collect our result slip. Again, I met her alone approaching her teacher to collect her slip. After she thanked and left her teacher, I wanted to approach her and talked to her as I was just next to her but I lacked the courage again to do so. Damn, what a coward I am…! It was like she was waiting for me to say something to her so she stood there looking around. Again I let that chance escaped as she walked away. I could only shake my head sadly and blame myself for being such a coward.
15th June 2006
A good friend of mine, CH told me and Kelvin (Kelvin was in the same class with her during Form 4 to Form 5) during recess time that J send her regards to us. It was then I remembered her and all the flashbacks of my secondary school life came to me in a flash. I kept quiet all the while because I was mixed with sad and happy emotions.
Sad: Because I had not talked to her while I had the chance.
Happy: Because I heard of her again.
After my final class for yesterday, we went out and waited for our parents to pick us up and return to our respective homes. CH told me that J have a handphone, I was glad and asked her for J’s number. I got her number and I store it in my contact list, planning to sms or call her later to talk to her.
15th June 2006. – 8.19pm
While going through my physics textbook and tutorial, I picked up my phone and began smsing her..
WL: “Hello J, long time no see, how are you?”
J: “Who r u?
WL: “WL, are you J? Did I get the wrong num?”
J: “Oh, u ha! Em, long no c ho. I heard CH say u r in Swinburne. I m fine. U? Ok or not 8 there?”
WL: “Not too gd, not too bad lor. A lot of homework n assignments, wad abt u? How’s Form 6?
J: “Em, juz starting. But hav 2 work hard la. D books r very thick, I duno can tackle them or not.
WL: “Sure can la, you so smart leh. Eh r u busy now? If u r then I chat with u next time lor.. Hope that u will forgive me for wad happened in Form 3 that time…
J: “Ha, I already 4got liao, we stil friend ma… I sms u next time lo. Good luck 2 u.
WL: “Thanks J :) All the best to you too! Cya around~
And so our conversation ended. This line is the only line that made my evening joyous:
- J: "Ha, I already 4got liao, we stil friend ma…"
I succeeded in talking to her, to most of you it might be nothing but it is something joyful to me.
Today, 16th June 2006 – 1:37am
……… Yawn… I’ll call it a day. I have a test coming in 18 hours time… sigh… Took 2 hours time to recall, blog and edit till everything is in the correct order..
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
To whoever it concerns. Shame on you! Leaver!
Even from the title you can infer that I am pissed/angry with something/someone.
Here it goes. A few of us, which includes me, my friend Kelvin and Robert were sort-of-challenged to play a game of dota. If you do not know what is DOTA, click here. Fine with that. We accepted the challenge. A handicapped match of 3 vs 4. Honestly, i'm not bragging, I dont mind 2 vs 5 either. I prefer a team with less players. Why? Thats my style. I wont explain why. Lets move on. The game started around 8:15pm. We went into our respective teams and the game started.
All was going well, no leavers, no scoldings, no pinpointing, no whining. TILL someone whom I don't wish to mentioned whined and whined asking for remake (restart game) and guess what? They leave themselves without the approval of us, their opponents. Fine, 1st round? Let it be. Let's proceed to 2nd round, this was in our minds. So we left the game and started a new one. All goes well again till they started to grumble and whine non-stop saying we should go Bs3 and play there instead of playing in Hamachi, which are for kids. After saying so and a few moments later, one by one of you leave the game as if you are playing with no one. Fine with me too, since I had met many players like you in Bs3.
And..
PARDON ME? Bs3? Then why the heck did you challenge us to play dota? Hamachi are for kids? How old are you all then? Or do you freaking mean you are kids mentally and adults physically?
In DotA, I respect every players. Which includes both good and bad ones. From the 1st game till the last game I played with you all. I kept giving chances over and over for you to escape from certain death, It is you who do not treasure the chances given and continue to go on eventhough almost everyone know that staying on that spot will bring nothing but death. Yet you ignored it and died on the spot. I will say it here, I AM calling you a NOOB not because of your game performance, but because of your freaking attitude of whining, being a leaver and persuading the other players to leave the game.
To conclude? Change your freaking attitude, you are leaving teenage years in a few years time to adulthood. It is time for you to think maturely and act maturely. I have no further comments on those 2 games. If you want the replay of those 2 games. I have them.
No harsh feelings, I'm writing my thoughts out. If you don't like it. Don't read it. This blog is created by me (courtesy of blogger.com) to write anything I like. And you have your own freedom not to look and read it.
Here it goes. A few of us, which includes me, my friend Kelvin and Robert were sort-of-challenged to play a game of dota. If you do not know what is DOTA, click here. Fine with that. We accepted the challenge. A handicapped match of 3 vs 4. Honestly, i'm not bragging, I dont mind 2 vs 5 either. I prefer a team with less players. Why? Thats my style. I wont explain why. Lets move on. The game started around 8:15pm. We went into our respective teams and the game started.
All was going well, no leavers, no scoldings, no pinpointing, no whining. TILL someone whom I don't wish to mentioned whined and whined asking for remake (restart game) and guess what? They leave themselves without the approval of us, their opponents. Fine, 1st round? Let it be. Let's proceed to 2nd round, this was in our minds. So we left the game and started a new one. All goes well again till they started to grumble and whine non-stop saying we should go Bs3 and play there instead of playing in Hamachi, which are for kids. After saying so and a few moments later, one by one of you leave the game as if you are playing with no one. Fine with me too, since I had met many players like you in Bs3.
And..
PARDON ME? Bs3? Then why the heck did you challenge us to play dota? Hamachi are for kids? How old are you all then? Or do you freaking mean you are kids mentally and adults physically?
In DotA, I respect every players. Which includes both good and bad ones. From the 1st game till the last game I played with you all. I kept giving chances over and over for you to escape from certain death, It is you who do not treasure the chances given and continue to go on eventhough almost everyone know that staying on that spot will bring nothing but death. Yet you ignored it and died on the spot. I will say it here, I AM calling you a NOOB not because of your game performance, but because of your freaking attitude of whining, being a leaver and persuading the other players to leave the game.
To conclude? Change your freaking attitude, you are leaving teenage years in a few years time to adulthood. It is time for you to think maturely and act maturely. I have no further comments on those 2 games. If you want the replay of those 2 games. I have them.
No harsh feelings, I'm writing my thoughts out. If you don't like it. Don't read it. This blog is created by me (courtesy of blogger.com) to write anything I like. And you have your own freedom not to look and read it.
Monday, June 12, 2006
By combining Boyle's law and reality comes.. Heaven?
Message: BONUS QUESTION ON CHEMISTRY EXAM
The following is supposedly an actual question given on University of Washington chemistry mid-term.
The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.
Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic(absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.
One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave, therefore, no souls are leaving.
As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.
With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities:
1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over. So which is it?
If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman Year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you," and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.
The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct... leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being, which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."
THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A" !!!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Football season.. again
Yes, football season again. Unlike many guys out there, I totally have NO intrest in football matches. Should I be curious about the results, I'll just ask some friends of mine for the score update only. Why I don't like football? I have no idea too, just not intrested in it. Or maybe its because I'm too busy and stressed with my Uni life? Imagine the assignments, tests, presentation, lab reports.. all coming non-stop.
It's not that I do not know how to play football, I do enjoy football in my secondary school years. But somehow, I lost the intrest for football. Just watching a football match can send me to sleep. Its like reading secondary school history textbook. Those will definitely make you doze off without yourself realizing it. Below are some intresting and err.. just read it yourself :)
World Cup rules for girls
LIST OF RULES
1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006, you should read the sport pages so you are aware of what's going on regarding the World Cup and will be able to join in conversations. If you fail to do this, you'll be looked at in a bad way or be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.
2. During the World Cup the television is mine, mine, mine at all times - without any exceptions.
3. I don't mind if you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game - as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me. If you decide to stand naked in front of the TV, make sure you put clothes on right after because if you catch a cold, I won't have time to take you to the doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.
4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute - unless I require a refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up the baby that just fell from the second floor....it won't happen.
5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least two six packs in the fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on. And please do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am, unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.
6. Please, please, please if you see me upset because one of my teams is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game" or "don't worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a break-up or divorce.
7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me during half-time but only when the adverts are on, and only if the score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one" game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time together".
8. Most importantly, making love is out of the question during the entire month. It has to be a 'quickie' and that has to be during half-time as well.
9. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.
10. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because:
a) I will not go,
b) I will not go, and
c) I will not go.
11. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a game, we will be there in a flash.
12. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we can all watch?" The reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".
13. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because after this comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League, English Premier League, etc etc.
Thank you for your cooperation.
Regards,
Men of the World
It's not that I do not know how to play football, I do enjoy football in my secondary school years. But somehow, I lost the intrest for football. Just watching a football match can send me to sleep. Its like reading secondary school history textbook. Those will definitely make you doze off without yourself realizing it. Below are some intresting and err.. just read it yourself :)
World Cup rules for girls
LIST OF RULES
1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006, you should read the sport pages so you are aware of what's going on regarding the World Cup and will be able to join in conversations. If you fail to do this, you'll be looked at in a bad way or be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.
2. During the World Cup the television is mine, mine, mine at all times - without any exceptions.
3. I don't mind if you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game - as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me. If you decide to stand naked in front of the TV, make sure you put clothes on right after because if you catch a cold, I won't have time to take you to the doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.
4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute - unless I require a refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up the baby that just fell from the second floor....it won't happen.
5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least two six packs in the fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on. And please do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am, unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.
6. Please, please, please if you see me upset because one of my teams is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game" or "don't worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a break-up or divorce.
7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me during half-time but only when the adverts are on, and only if the score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one" game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time together".
8. Most importantly, making love is out of the question during the entire month. It has to be a 'quickie' and that has to be during half-time as well.
9. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.
10. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because:
a) I will not go,
b) I will not go, and
c) I will not go.
11. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a game, we will be there in a flash.
12. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we can all watch?" The reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".
13. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because after this comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League, English Premier League, etc etc.
Thank you for your cooperation.
Regards,
Men of the World
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Something very common, yet meaningful
Tree
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The reason why I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Every time I started with a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.
I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal whom I love a lot but never have the courage to go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn’t have an outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watches me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laughs and joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heartache is as terrible as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know who that guy is. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. I wanted to shout but unable to do so. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence.During graduation day, I read a sms in my handphone. It was sent 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't asked her to stay"
Leaf
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During the Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long requires a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was in a very close term with a guy. Not Boy-Girl Relationship type but as a buddy type. When he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I should never have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a single lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal.
I like him and I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why won’t he start the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he doesn’t like me, why does he treat me so well? It’s beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect a gal like me to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemmas accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Each day, he will pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. But I left the tree finally, the tree only smile and never asked me to stay. As I thought to myself – The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because the Tree didn’t asked her to stay.
Wind
========
It is because I like a gal called leaf. She's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust of wind. A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was a month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like the way she look at him.
day, she didn't show up. I felt something amiss. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
'Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away '
'It’s not that leaf’s heart is too heavy. It because leaf never wanted to leave tree '
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within times, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decided I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked "what are you doing? Why won’t you reply?"
She said, "I'm nodding my head".
"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rushed to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly. The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't asked her to stay.
Moral of the story?
- When you love someone, never regret what you do. Only regret what you had not do -
Edit: I'm not the person mentioned in those 3 parts of the happening. Hope to clear any misunderstandings
========
The reason why I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Every time I started with a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.
I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal whom I love a lot but never have the courage to go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn’t have an outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watches me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laughs and joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heartache is as terrible as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know who that guy is. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. I wanted to shout but unable to do so. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence.During graduation day, I read a sms in my handphone. It was sent 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't asked her to stay"
Leaf
=======
During the Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long requires a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was in a very close term with a guy. Not Boy-Girl Relationship type but as a buddy type. When he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I should never have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a single lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal.
I like him and I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why won’t he start the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he doesn’t like me, why does he treat me so well? It’s beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect a gal like me to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemmas accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Each day, he will pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. But I left the tree finally, the tree only smile and never asked me to stay. As I thought to myself – The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because the Tree didn’t asked her to stay.
Wind
========
It is because I like a gal called leaf. She's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust of wind. A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was a month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like the way she look at him.
day, she didn't show up. I felt something amiss. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
'Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away '
'It’s not that leaf’s heart is too heavy. It because leaf never wanted to leave tree '
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within times, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decided I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked "what are you doing? Why won’t you reply?"
She said, "I'm nodding my head".
"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rushed to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly. The Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't asked her to stay.
Moral of the story?
- When you love someone, never regret what you do. Only regret what you had not do -
Edit: I'm not the person mentioned in those 3 parts of the happening. Hope to clear any misunderstandings
Thursday, June 08, 2006
A few more minutes to go...
As title says, a few minutes more to go before my Reading Test..
I'm still wondering why the heck am I still blogging?
Maybe I'm too bored in Uni I guess. Dota will do the trick, Later.
I'm still wondering why the heck am I still blogging?
Maybe I'm too bored in Uni I guess. Dota will do the trick, Later.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Coincidence?
After our Physics A lecture ended, we headed to the computer lab, where we are to face certain doom for not preparing for the IT practical test.
As we were doing the test halfway, (sweating hard as I had not studied the complicated parts)...
BLING! (everything fades to black)
The whole University is out of power, and our Lecturer said: "Oh, looks like we have to replace the test again next time, maybe on week 14 (the last week before semester exam?) "
To cut things short, This is something nice that had happened to me today, and for some of my friends too. Some were disappointed though...
As we were doing the test halfway, (sweating hard as I had not studied the complicated parts)...
BLING! (everything fades to black)
The whole University is out of power, and our Lecturer said: "Oh, looks like we have to replace the test again next time, maybe on week 14 (the last week before semester exam?) "
To cut things short, This is something nice that had happened to me today, and for some of my friends too. Some were disappointed though...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Woah... Geng wor!
Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.
The question?....What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end. He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer. Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.
The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first. The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot, learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He said nothing was too big a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.
Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and th e witch answered Arthur's question thus: What a woman really wants, she answered....is to be in charge of her own life. Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was, the neighboring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.
The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half. Which would he prefer? Beautiful during the day....or night? Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day, but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments?
What would YOU do? What Lancelot chose is below. BUT....make YOUR choice before you scroll down below. OKAY? Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself. Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.
Now....what is the moral to this story? Scroll down !
The moral is..... If you don't let a woman have her own way.... Things are going to get ugly!
The question?....What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end. He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer. Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.
The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first. The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot, learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He said nothing was too big a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.
Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and th e witch answered Arthur's question thus: What a woman really wants, she answered....is to be in charge of her own life. Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was, the neighboring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.
The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half. Which would he prefer? Beautiful during the day....or night? Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day, but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments?
What would YOU do? What Lancelot chose is below. BUT....make YOUR choice before you scroll down below. OKAY? Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself. Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.
Now....what is the moral to this story? Scroll down !
The moral is..... If you don't let a woman have her own way.... Things are going to get ugly!
Did I ever stop?
Did I ever stop to make you smile
When your day was hard or your road was long?
When your light stopped shining for a while,
Did I sing for you a happy song?
Did I ever try to make you laugh
When your eyes held tears and you couldn't speak?
When your world seemed almost torn in half,
Did I hold your hand or kiss your cheek?
Did i ever pause to hear your voice
When you needed just a moment's ear?
When you'd lost your way or missed a choice,
Did I let you know that I was near?
Did I ever stop to say I care
When I didn't seek to hear it too?
When you weren't so sure that I'd be there,
Did I ever show my love for you?
When your day was hard or your road was long?
When your light stopped shining for a while,
Did I sing for you a happy song?
Did I ever try to make you laugh
When your eyes held tears and you couldn't speak?
When your world seemed almost torn in half,
Did I hold your hand or kiss your cheek?
Did i ever pause to hear your voice
When you needed just a moment's ear?
When you'd lost your way or missed a choice,
Did I let you know that I was near?
Did I ever stop to say I care
When I didn't seek to hear it too?
When you weren't so sure that I'd be there,
Did I ever show my love for you?
What will his sweetheart say?
A young man wanted to purchase a gift for his new sweetheart's birthday, and as they had not been dating very long, after careful consideration he decided a pair of gloves would strike the right note : romantic, but not too personal. Accompanied by his sweetheart's younger sister, he went to Nordstorm and bought a pair of white gloves. The sister purchased a pair of panties for herself. During the wrapping, the clerk mixed up the items and the sister got the gloves and the sweetheart got the panties.
Without checking the contents, the young man sealed the package and sent it to his sweetheart with the note :
"I chose these because I noticed that you are not in the habit of wearing any when we go out in the evening. If it had not been for your sister, I would have chosen the long ones with the buttons, but she wears short ones that are easier to remove.These are a delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart. I wish I was there to put them on for you the first time, as no doubt other hands will come in contact with them before I have a chance to see you again. When you take them off, remember to blow in them before putting them away as they will naturally be a little damp from wearing. Just think how many times I will kiss them during the coming year. I hope you will wear them for me on Friday night. All my Love"
"P/S: The latest style is to wear them folded down with a little fur showing."
Without checking the contents, the young man sealed the package and sent it to his sweetheart with the note :
"I chose these because I noticed that you are not in the habit of wearing any when we go out in the evening. If it had not been for your sister, I would have chosen the long ones with the buttons, but she wears short ones that are easier to remove.These are a delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart. I wish I was there to put them on for you the first time, as no doubt other hands will come in contact with them before I have a chance to see you again. When you take them off, remember to blow in them before putting them away as they will naturally be a little damp from wearing. Just think how many times I will kiss them during the coming year. I hope you will wear them for me on Friday night. All my Love"
"P/S: The latest style is to wear them folded down with a little fur showing."
Monday, June 05, 2006
DoomsDay
As title says, today is the time to complete our oral presentation once and for all. No more worries, no more doubts, no more fears; no confidence either.. sigh..
P.S: Hey QE, if you are reading this, mind to teach me how to beautify my blog? :D
P.S: Hey QE, if you are reading this, mind to teach me how to beautify my blog? :D
Sunday, June 04, 2006
What's next?
Finally finished all the necessary items needed for presentation tomorrow, exclude memorizing the script. (sigh) This is the 1st time in my life I felt sooooo under pressure. Is that a must for every teenager?
Went out earlier with Kelvin, Dennis and also our host Jeffrey who treat us dinner. Too bad its not a buffet.. If it is, I wonder what will happen to Jeffrey's wallet.. Thanks alot Jeffrey!
Wish me luck for tomorrow's presentation~ I'll need every single bit of it.
Went out earlier with Kelvin, Dennis and also our host Jeffrey who treat us dinner. Too bad its not a buffet.. If it is, I wonder what will happen to Jeffrey's wallet.. Thanks alot Jeffrey!
Wish me luck for tomorrow's presentation~ I'll need every single bit of it.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Assignments assignments assignments
As title says, assignments come in a non-stop way, anyone have any idea how to stop it?
The four seasons
Summer came into my life for the past 2 years, and left around 6 months ago.
Then came Autumn, someone whom I met and get to know not too long ago.
All the while i wondered, where is Spring and Winter? Am I suppose to meet them after I met with both Summer and Autumn?
Then came Autumn, someone whom I met and get to know not too long ago.
All the while i wondered, where is Spring and Winter? Am I suppose to meet them after I met with both Summer and Autumn?
Why blog?
Honestly, I don't have a single idea why I am doing THIS right now. Maybe i'm inspired by all my friends around me who blog almost daily?
I guess i have found out why I choose to blog, to spend my free time and leave a trail of footprints on my daily happenings
I guess i have found out why I choose to blog, to spend my free time and leave a trail of footprints on my daily happenings
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