Sunday, April 29, 2007

Love vs Career

2 days ago there was this friend of mine whom I get to know in Bs3. He is someone whom I can call an elder brother though he is not one. I used to play DotA with him all day long last year (when we were still having our self-proclaimed holidays after SPM).

He had been traveling to many places this year as a representative of his company to cooperate with companies from other countries. Recently, he told me that he just got back from Taiwan. Besides getting to work with the company in Taiwan, the boss also addresses him as ‘kia sai’ or son-in-law and this boss was kind enough to give him his second daughter as my friend’s bride.

He showed me his fiancée’s picture; of course she was a beauty. The majority of Taiwanese males and females are much better compared to Malaysian males and females in terms of looks. Maybe it is the difference in climate that makes the difference. Of course I felt happy and congratulate him.

A happy ending once they got married and live happily ever after? No, that’s the beginning of all problems - I remembered he had a girlfriend over here in Malaysia too. Comparing his current girlfriend and the Taiwanese girl he shown me, I sadly conclude that the Taiwanese girl look better than his current girlfriend. Of course, physical looks are nothing at all if one is seeking for a long-term relationship. Also, the boss’s daughter has the riches compared to his current girlfriend. Again, money is not a factor if one is seeking for a long-term relationship as you cannot take your money with you to the afterlife no matter how much money you possess.

His girlfriend knew about the Taiwanese girl too but he didn’t tell me her reaction when she knew about it. Any stupid person would also know that the girl must have been extremely sad and hurt even if my friend doesn’t say so.


Let’s weigh the scales:

His current girlfriend: She was his ex-classmate if not mistaken and he had wanted to court her long ago. He succeeded and now had been in a relationship with her for years and both of them always loved each other. They always give and take, never taking advantage of the other. And the list goes on…

His said Fiancée: He had not known her for long but it should be vital that he take her as his bride as this will greatly enhance the relationship between two companies and also earning himself a pretty wife at the same time(ignore the riches part); one-stone-two-birds technique again.

Even so, people like us have different opinions on this issue. Those who are loyal will cling to their partner no matter what happens. A very old-fashion thinking and I admit that I am one of them. But some are willing to give up their partners in order to get better ones. Not that this is wrong, it is right also depending on how you view it - You will be filled with riches yourself and benefiting the company you are working for at the same time and if you are lucky, you are likely to earn a promotion just like that. Reminds me of my Moral Studies lecturer, he said something like: “there is no right or wrong in this world but only the way we view it that makes our opinion different from the rest”.

But my friend is different from us; he doesn’t have a choice like we do. From the way he talked about it, it seems like he is already stuck with the Taiwanese girl and there’s no turning back for him. Rejecting the Taiwanese girl might result in canceling the pact made between both companies and no one would want that to happen. When I questioned him on what came into his mind first; love or career? He answered career almost immediately I wasn’t surprised as I had been expecting this answer from him when I picture myself in his situation.

I wish him the best of luck; this is the time in life when he needs to choose his path of life when the road he is taking is split into two, once a person steps on either one, there is no more turning back.

If you were given a chance to choose, would you choose love over career or career over love?


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Swinburne Night was over 4 hours ago. There was a misunderstanding in the sushi part and sad to say, not everyone in my table voted for Silent Mode due to personal reasons not to be revealed here. But I can assure you that I had voted for Silent Mode.

I’ll blog about it after I finished receiving the 200MB size winRAR file from Soon Ping.

Our group left at around 10.30pm and headed to Friendship Park and later on to (Lakeside Park?) for drinks and supper. After bidding farewell to SP, SW, SY, TI, Robert, the five of us – ZW, Kelvin, Jeff, Chen and I went to the airport to kill some time.

That was the time when we watched the policemen chasing after the illegal bikers LIVE. It all happens almost instantly. One moment, the police patrol car was driving through the lane in the first floor airport and disappeared into a corner. Approximately 25 seconds later, 2 bikers revved their engines and with a burst of speed, they zing past us, the police patrol car chased after them, accelerating like what I had never seen before. Anyway, that’s no big deal, give the policemen 10 bucks and you are free to go. Such is the uniqueness of Malaysian policemen. No offence.

Edit: Typos

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Minus one day

Today is one memorable day for me. After having my first EMB assessment hours ago, I wasn’t in the mood to stuff more information or knowledge into my brain so I skipped EMB lecture class (again). I didn’t realize that today’s the day of the unlocking of my two accounts in Bs3, thanks to the damned retarded GMs who can’t even differentiate what is leaving game on purpose and remaking a game.

Anyway I’m grateful enough to have them back after surrendering my twin accounts to the GMs unwillingly 2 months ago...

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Also, I’ve returned using the popular chatterbox as there are many flaws and problems with my previous chatterbox. Though I couldn’t bear to part with it, I had no other choice. Better to have a new chatterbox than to continue using an old malfunctioned chatterbox.

Monday, April 23, 2007

The Internet - Part II

My dad is down with illness recently and he talked lesser to us compared to the usual because he doesn't feel like it.


Behold the power of the Internet!

Even so, there is no stopping him in having conversations even if it is just a short one. That's my dad!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Departure

While I am blogging this entry, deep in my heart I hope for an explanation for everything that had happened.

A midnight conversation with a friend declined into a fierce battlefield when more participants were invited to clarify things up. Everyone was shooting their cannons points into the conversation. It was very chaotic until someone took the initiative to quiet down all the participants and told them to take turns to voice out their opinions and points or anything they have in mind with the condition of not going off-topic.

I admit that I can be hot-headed at times, that is why I always controlled my temper when I am facing the world. But when I am facing the monitor, I don’t give a damn about my temper especially when I am not in a good mood. But I still do consider the feelings of those who are with me in the conversation, thoughts of not going overboard and careful in picking my usage of words and so on.

There are countless gossips revolving in one single target, I have no need to mention what is that so-called target. It used to be for the whole community, but recently it seems like it had became limited to a number of people only.

The day we entered the race was the day we paid the fee and took up the challenge of the obstacle course, it was separated into 2 sections. The first one is just the basic while the second one is for the advanced levels. After passing the basic section only then will one be qualified to continue on to the advance section.

One of the fallen runner felt that:

Indeed we all began the race from the same starting point, even though there are no prizes for the champion, 1st runner up and 2nd runner up, we promised to accompany each other till the end of the line. The track is separated to 2 sections; the first one is the easier one out of the two. Many had fallen in the first section and those who had not, of course move on to the second section. But there are times when a few tripped and fall, resulting in delaying themselves in the long run. Of course, those who had not fallen continued to move forward, aiming for the ending point

It seems that those who were left behind in the first section were ignored and the ones in the second section cared only for themselves, in other words, became selfish and think only for their own benefits. Most of the time, those in the first section called out to the ones in the second section but whatever they mentioned fell on deaf ears. One of the fallen runners called out to those ahead of him in the second section of the race. Luckily those in the second section did stop and reconsider what those in the first section had mentioned though it must have been unwillingly.

It was already expected – those in the second section were in a different level compared to the first. What more can they say?

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Because the race was very long, breaks were given after a certain period of time. And when ‘that’ period of time arrives, celebration comes into the mind of many.

Another fallen runner believed that:

It is a special occasion for the majority, in fact, for everyone. A gathering was planned days before the actual day - the location is decided, the food was ordered, and the games were chosen. The host said that he will pay for everything first and the community had agreed to share the burden of the cost of the expenses.

After that fateful day, it seems like it was just empty promises made to a fool. No one even mentioned about the gathering anymore, maybe they had forgotten or maybe they were just pretending not to remember anything about it. To him, it seemed like he had carried the burden himself after all. He did not voice it out to claim the fees from the community but instead, he took it as a treat for them because they are friends of his.

Another person who had the similar experience with the person mentioned above felt that people like him and the one mentioned can only use money to show that they love their friends.

During the aftermath of the gathering, while two participants (A and B) were having a conversation. A mentioned that a member of the community wasn’t invited while B was shocked and wordless as it was the opposite for B because the so-called-uninvited member actually wanted to call off the gathering. He felt that the uninvited member called off the gathering because ‘someone’ couldn’t make it to the gathering but that ‘someone’ actually made it but came later than the agreed time.

Now B feels bad and upset at the same time, putting the blame on himself just because of some inconsiderate member. It might be a misunderstanding, or it might not be after all.

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After all that had happened,

This fallen runner felt that:

It had all been a play. A play and nothing more, at the end of the day, it was nothing more than he himself being the fool. He had always thought that he could get along with those who were now in the second section but he was wrong. Attempts had been made to get closer to them, instead of showing the same to him; they exclude him in the circle.

He told himself that maybe it is because he was still new to them and they need some time to get used to having another new member in their gang. Days passed and weeks passed but he waited patiently. A year had passed and it had still been the same. He began to felt fed up with them and decided to tell his friends who had accompanied him all the way from young about it. Instead of receiving words of comfort and encouragement, they reprimanded him for being slow to understanding the true picture of the whole story.

He had in his hand a number of the bright colored puzzle pieces. He never knew about the whereabouts of the other pieces of puzzles and had been naïve to think that by collecting all the pieces of the puzzle pieces and assembling it together, it will form into a piece of beautiful artwork with a happy ending.

His true friends showed him the pieces of puzzle they had in hand; they were not shinning with brightness but instead, the pieces were giving off an eerie glow of darkness. Nevertheless, piece by piece, the puzzle was assembled by him with the help of his friends. The puzzle showed him the true picture, clarifying what he was unsure or never knew of. Even though the puzzle is still incomplete, the majority of the pieces were dark, and the darkness had shrouded the glowing brightness of the puzzle pieces he originally had. He gave up assuming that the missing pieces were the bright ones since the dark ones had already outnumbered the bright ones by 10 to 1.

‘Closer friends’ is the keyword that triggered his anger. Enough said.

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He used to think that it was the best thing that happened to him when he joined the community though he never knew of any good reason to tell himself why he choose to join the community. He chooses to stay in the community because of a certain someone. That person is not his crush but a friend whom he respected.

Now he thinks otherwise, there is no need to look for a reason why he joined the community. He came seeking neither fame nor talent, but only to widen his circle of friends. Since such simple objective couldn’t be accomplished, there is no reason for him to stay on either.

When the time comes,
The sun hides its face and the sky burns a fiery red,
The moon appears and provides the land with its light,

Lighting a path,
No turning back, no regrets,
They will depart, not separately but as one.

Time will tell. Relations had declined into a steady stream of hatred and disappointment.

Attention: This is fictional and anything that resembles the above is of pure coincidence.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Appreciate what you have

This article caught my attention while I was flipping through the pages of the ‘Connection’ magazine:

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she is blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He is always there for her. She said that if she could see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?” The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walks away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. “Just take care of my eyes dear.”

This is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before and who’s always been there even in the painful situations.
Very true isn’t it?